June 5, 2011

Once upon a time, in a county plagued with deceipt, lived a girl, who at first glance you would think had the world at her fingertips.  Little did everyone know that she was suffering.  She allowed all of her hatred, frustrations, anger control every breathe that she took, not realizing the reprocussions would be grand if she didn't put to rest all that she has been carrying with her.  One day this girl, we'll call her Kelly, decided that she needed a change, she was tired of living out of deaths bottle. With much determination she proceeded to make certain that those changes would indeed become a vivid reality.  Today, Kelly has the ability to peer out of her shell, although she carries it with her for protection, and see for the first time, that life must be taken by the horn, and lived, something that she was not at all accustomed to.  She has for so long settled, not once ever thinking that happiness only lie around the corner.  She didn't look for it, wasn't asking around, but someway, somehow this "happiness" crept up on her, tapped her on the shoulder and startled her beyond belief.  At first she was skeptical, she even blocked from her mind the possibility.  I now catch her staring in the mirror at her reflection as she does most days, but she no longer asks herself who she sees when her reflection sees her.  She is becoming a wonderful, respected woman, although she rarely considers herself anything other than a girl.  She need not look any further, her euphoria is here, there, everywhere, she can see it, touch it and most definitely taste it.  I know all of this because I am that girl, I am that woman, I am Kelly.  I deserve this euphoric feeling to last a life time, and then some.  I have taken hold, although; some days it seems out of reach, I know it's there.  <3 <3