June 4, 2011

Once upon a time it should read, however; this is once upon a lifetime of learning experiences, enduring thoughts once plagued by dark shadows, only to reveal themselves at ones' weakest moments, my moments.  I allowed myself to be completely swallowed by horror, and being who I am, I lived in absolute fear.  Fear which turned into complete and utter hatred for myself and others' I surrounded myself with.  I, however; have been thrown up and am no longer plagued. I no longer allow these shadows to feast upon my thoughts, I have been shown a brightly lit path and here I intend to stay. I thought I knew what happiness was at one point in time, that too was ripped from my grasp, or perhaps I allowed it to be.  Happiness has always been here, within my soul, within my reach and I now have the ability to hold on tight to it. I feel it, I smell it and I most certainly taste it.  I have been shown a love that I knew existed but never thought possible.  I cannot let it go, it doesn't linger far from my mind, nor my heart. This love sings to me when I am down, and encourages me to carry on throughout my day, with hesitation.  I see into the eyes of loves' soul, and am reassured daily by a kind gesture, a simple word that I am where the love is.  This girl, that has been lost for so long is finally found, and I will tie a string around my finger to remind myself of such.  Love is....a most wonderous thing.