Storms produce energy that is unspeakable, yet when I stand and watch with intent, I feel that surge rush through my veins unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. God is on my side, today, I let him in; I’ve cleared that way for him, to guide me, to reassure me, and to love me. I used to think he had forgotten all about this girl, standing alone, struggling to hold onto to dreams from childhood, and all the while, he was right there, out of sight, yet there. I’m struggling today to hold back the tears, not caused by pain, but joy. I feel rejuvenated and whole again. Nothing will stand in my way, I won’t allow it. All that I am and all that I possess spiritually I owe to one and only one, and that one is God. He has given me the strength to clear my head, my thoughts, and my vision. Vision once obscured by Satan in a bottle. That bottle is my past; I will no longer stagger nor slur my words, my hopes, nor my dreams. My childhood dreams are becoming reality and yes, I am scared at times, but as long as I walk the straight and narrow road, fear will not jump out from behind the shrubs and get the best of this girl. I never imagined (perhaps I have, but must have taken all for granted) standing, being witness to such wonder, and absorbing all that it possesses, it’s overwhelming. I saw flashes of light and heard the roll of the thunder as if I was hearing and seeing for the first time ever. This is what it’s all about, living life, not letting it pass you by, I understand now. This is where I belong, right here, and right now. Loving and living and learning all the while.
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