June 10, 2011

I thought it futile in the past to impose on others' the use of cliches, and now I know the effectiveness of using them in my daily life to express myself to the good of others', whether they like it or not.  I no longer feel the need to control any other, nor do I wish to stir the past into my present.  I am taking each moment as it comes, and each day as it is given to me.  One day at a time I am recognizing and putting to rest all of those misgivings that once were.  The only thing I find necessary today is maintaining my peace of mind.  I figure that if I can do something as simple yet complex as that, then I'm half way there.  Where you ask?  Hmm, that, I have often wondered myself.  I know in my heart of hearts where I would like to be at this very moment, however circumstances being what they are, it's not possible.  If I look at the "big picture" and project into the future, I once again know where it is I WANT to be.  I haven't expressed such in fear of rejection or perhaps humiliation on my part for presuming what it is that others' think and feel.  I am that girl, coming full circle, and still I am in awe at the beautiful sights I have been given the ability to see once again.  There are some that are far more beautiful than others' and I only pray that I be given the opportunity to savor all. I found this poem and felt it a necessity to share, in hopes that it touches the life of another as much as it has myself...

....SOUL MATES....

As a child you learn of a soul mate…a person made perfectly for you, your two souls become connected as one and are destined to be together until the end of time.

Through adolescence you grasp on to this idea of a soul mate, believing you will someday find the one.

But after much heartache and many rivers of tears, this notion you’ve held onto for years begins to fade.

As time goes by, day by day, year after year, you move forward, accepting of your failures and proud of your successes…until that day.

This is a day like any other, it begins no differently than yesterday and the days before, but it is a day that will change you forever, a day that the magic and fantasy of a soul mate becomes real.

For each of us it happens differently…the holding of eye contact, an introduction, a smile.  Regardless of how it began, the moment is unforgettable.  

It was a magical moment, frozen in time, the surroundings, the smells, the feeling you felt. 

The rush of warmth through your body felt exhilarating and new, yet somehow familiar.  It was a feeling you imagined time and again…but never this powerful.

As butterflies fluttered in your stomach it was an explosion of emotions.  Who is this person that can make me feel this way?

As this invisible force draws you to this person you can sense a mutual feeling.  A connection unlike any other you’ve experienced before, impossible to resist. 

You feel a burning, a fire from deep inside, that you can’t ignore.  From that first second of encounter this person is there with you, in every thought and action…causing you to smile, laugh, and feel more alive than ever before. 

This person becomes a part of you, your other half…your soul mate.