July 2, 2010

So begins a "Holiday" weekend, a holiday for whom and for what, so many have forgotten, however; that has nothing to do with me at the present moment. It's only a moment in time that I take each and every single day to jot down my own thoughts, and express myself without fear of being judged by others by opening my mouth and inserting my own damn foot. I guess what I'm trying to convince myself of is that I know fireworks are awesome and parades before the fireworks are even better it's a matter of principal I'm tellin' ya. I'm not saying I wouldn't love to crack open an ice cold beer sit next to a raging fire with my feet up and just dive into the moment, but what I need to say is that I don't want to crack open that damn beer, because one just won't be enough, and the next thing ya know is I'm sitting or lying on the ground passed out, not me, NO NOT ME. I will enjoy the weekend in it's entirety the way it should be enjoyed with my friends and family (hmmm). I believe I'm slowly gaining strength through my weaknesses if that makes the least bit of sense, and to be perfectly honest it really doesn't matter if it makes sense to anyone other than myself. I know where I've been and for how long I was there I also know where it is I need to be. Just taking those damn "BABY" steps sucks a**, and that is a given.