August 28, 2011

Sitting listening to the rain, praying to God all are safe elsewhere, I can't help but feel a bit of sadness come over me instantaniously.  I woke, and you were gone. Was it something I said perhaps, did I not give you my undivided attention?  Whatever the reason may be, I feel alone.  Sad and alone.  I'll overcome this feeling of momentary lonliness and confusion, yes I will.  The most wonderful feeling is that of LOVE.  Feeling love, seeing it in the eyes of others' as they gaze into your eyes.  I have seen this before, but it was not for me, but others'.  I have NEVER really felt worthy of LOVE, let alone worthy of possessing such, in order to give to another.  I can tell you this much however;   I am capable of LOVE, giving and receiving, without any road blocks, no bricks, not a single one.  Those damn bricks have left scars, internal as well as external.  Physical pain is one thing but emotional?, FUCK! that tears at you constantly, until we can let go absolutely with the LOVE of another.  I have that, I've been letting go of the pain, the scars are becoming lessened over time, and knowing that I am loved as deeply as I love today, is speeding up that process.  I LOVE YOU.