Sometimes I just have to sit back and laugh at life and all it's thrown at me, then it starts a fire inside of my soul, forcing me to move forward. I realize that I may not have been the perfect person for some, but for another perhaps. I've paid my dues, I've lived my own hell, caused others' to live that hell, and for that I sincerely appologize, I don't regret it yet I appologize. I had to go through all that I have in order to be right where I am at this very moment. ALIVE. I am alive. I am breathing, tasting, touching, arms stretched out, grasping for what is within my reach now. I am who I am meant to be today. The roads that were less traveled now have imprints on them from my own two feet. I can only hope that another will see that it isn't the road less traveled today, tomorrow or whenever, and decide to take a path of their own.
I have witnessed within myself a hatred that emerged from childhood, and followed me for all of those years. I can now let that hatred sit on the sidelines, and watch in utter jealousy, whilst I move on. I have moved on. I was gone before I even realized it. I have met the man that I want for always, and forever so he says. I love him, unconditionally. I am airing my laundry and not dirty laundry, laundry that has been maticulously washed, dried and folded. Laundry that I am proud to call my own today. I love you, with all of my heart and I hope you realize that.
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