November 9, 2012

Often I wonder what purpose it is that I serve! I've dealt with all of the manipulative bullshit I care to for the rest of this life. I don't understand why some feel it necessary to treat ME like I am non-existent for the most part only to need me when it suits their fancy? Why do I allow this shit to happen? What the fuck is wrong with me that I can't see what's right in front of my face? I make myself sick to my own stomache. I wish that I could reach deep inside and rip out my insides so that I was hollow. No emotions, no feelings left to be trampled upon. What a wonderful day that would be.