It came to pass...

And so it came to pass that I now realize that I must take my place, as hard as it has been for me to come to terms with all that has been and not been my heart is broken. No, it's shattered once again. I allowed myself to feel, for a short while even after I swore I would never again. It just happened. I was taken by surprise. I should have learned from past experiences that I am not worthy of LOVE. I have no business giving nor receiving such grand emotion. I am sorry to those who felt neglected in any way, shape or form. My intentions as always were as pure as a little girls dreams. After all that's all I have left...those dreams I once knew. They have been extinguished by a flood of displaced emotion. I will no longer burden those with my "baggage". You are all set free! I will be okay and maybe one day, someday I will crawl out from under the ashes of my broken soul and stand tall. I wish I knew for certain the outcome of all of this. I am scared. FEAR has control of me and I am giving in to him. I haven't the strength nor the courage to put up a fight for what I want. Til tomorrow.