August 9, 2012

I have discovered that there comes a point in time in ones’ life (my life) that acceptance needs to be implemented.  I have tolerated more than my fair share of heartache and pain, of both the physical and emotional variety. I have constructed every last bit on my own and I have emphatically decided that it is time I stand up for myself, accept what has been done and create a new life, walk down an out of the way trail with my head high, devising a new plan of attack, in a manner of speaking, abandoning all that has been, looking forward to what is yet to be.  I must admit that I am intimidated by such thought provoking notions, that perhaps I just may get ALL that my HEART desires (and really it isn’t much).  I’ve been trying to balance the beam alone for so long that I’ve forgotten there are others’ willing to make the ride less daunting.  I know what it is that should be done, however; the realization that I may in turn be ‘HAPPY’ scares me even more so than I assume it should.  It’s a never ending task I’ve set before myself, and I know that some days are going to be worse than others’ and that it takes time to heal ALL wounds.  I am willing at this very moment to take all of that clutter out of the closet, stuff it in bags and toss them for good. I can’t say whether or not something somewhere may or may not crop up, yet I am still willing.  WHEWWWW!!!  Here we go! Wish me LUCK!