How does one (in particularly me) define inner strength? Strength defined is virtue (a pattern of thought or behaviors), courage (the ability to confront fear, pain, danger, uncertainty), the ability to withstand...etc...etc... If I am as strong as I am told, than I should not be living in constant fear, I should have the ability to face it, to withstand all. I don't see myself as that strong individual, perhaps years ago, I had the strength others' believe I possess. I feel weakened and broken; as if I have been to battle and all had been lost. I feel lost, and alone, afraid (YES FEAR, I am acknowledging you once again) I carry myself so as to portray a strong woman, but inside my shell, I am still that little girl, timid and shy, wanting to run and hide. I put my feelings aside for others' because I see they need what I feel I lack. STRENGTH! Perhaps I do have a tad left. I've been seeking answers outside of myself these past few days, and have discovered that I want to help, I want to be a part of this journey...LIFE...not only to benefit myself, yet to guide others'. I have thrown a line out and it lays dormant. No takers. I want to be there, I need to be. It's my nature...to help others'. I am most certainly rambling.
'LIVE LIFE NOT WITHOUT FEAR, BUT WITH GALLANTRY AGAINST IT' - Christian L J Silver
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