December 31, 2012

The eve of yet the ending of another year! Was it a good one? Fuck if I know. I just want it to be done with already. Move forward, forget the past, let bygones be bygones. So I set my sights on nothing for this coming year because I will only disappoint myself. Too many times have I held my breath thinking this is the moment, or the next and so on and so on. I haven't the energy to hold my breath any longer. Fate? My fate was written the moment I arrived and from my perspective, it doesn't seem that the stars have anything wonderful set for me. I give up on hope as well. I'm not a child and I shouldn't act as if I am one. I need to focus my attention elsewhere. I shouldn't be so greedy thinking of what I want or what I would like to have...how foolish a girl is that? It's time to grow up.