Friday, December 21, 2012

December 21, 2012


I thought it was finally my time.  I'm just not good enough am I?  I will never be good enough.  I stopped searching, I had almost given up hope, finally, or so I thought, the puzzle with a missing piece.  So I tried to pry myself  into a space that wasn't big enough, for me, that is.  I just realized that I don’t fit.  I’ve been pushed to the side with the other pieces that want a puzzle of their own, only to discover that I never really had a chance.  What a really sad day for me.  I have struggled daily trying to transform myself into a puzzle piece that doesn’t suit me.  I could cover myself with gems of the rarest kind and still not be enough.  I am not needy.  I don’t require constant attention.  I’ve been pushed so far away that the pain is beginning to subside.  It’s now a numb burning sensation, no longer the piercing agony I’ve been accustomed to.  You all win!  I give up!  I have no fight left in me.  

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