December 20, 2012

So begins another harried attempt at making things right with myself and others'.  It's more difficult than I presumed anything else in this life to be.  I fuck up more often than not and when I do, all HELL breaks loose.  I know that there is peace and serenity on the other side, so what the fuck is holding me prisoner?  Is it really all my own doing?  Do I genuinely sabotage every ounce of happiness to wallow in self-pity and absolute misery?  I can honestly say that, "I don't believe I do!"  I am trying with all of my might to turn my thoughts and actions around so that others' will want to be near me.