February 10, 2017

So I do believe that I have finally reached the end of the rope. The knot I had once tied has come completely undone and the rope itself is frayed so there is no use in attempting to tie another to hold onto. The laughs are ALL on me AGAIN.  I have no tears to shed, no more jealousy, nothing, absolutely nothing. I feel nothing. I have become numb, almost numb. Tears still flow, what the fuck? Apparently it hurts more than I want and I feel more than I should.