September 12, 2102

These are the words, that cause thoughts, that I reflect upon almost daily. (shallow or superficial, belonging to a particular individual, a close friend, relating to)  Do I allow the dictionary to define my relationship or do I look past the actual definitions and come to my own conclusion, and if I draw my own, is it conceivable that perhaps my characterization of such is delusional and perhaps I should leave the defining to those who know best?  Ugghhh... Some days more often than not I am ready to throw in the towel and call everything, "OFF", not only the limited socializing that I allow myself, but EVERYTHING.  I have been dragging my feet lately, scared as I may be, I have put forth the extra effort to continue moving forward.  I don't see myself moving up, I am stagnated, which in itself is some sort of progression.  A lot is weighing on my weakened shoulder's this very moment and has been for some time.  I'm at a loss for words, and my mind is now a blank slate.