May 6, 2011

Unexpected rants and raves attack my innermost thoughts almost daily.  I find myself revisiting the past more often than not these days.  Why is that?  Have I perhaps lost site of what's most important to me?  I continue to attain serenity daily, however; those damn skeletons are defiant and want me to let my guard down.  I refuse instantaneously for fear of the unknown, or perhaps I do know and I then reinforce once again that wall I've placed all around.  It's safe and secure, but I want to let my guard down, I want to trust and be trusted, to love and be loved for all the right reasons.  I owe myself that much!  I've removed a few of those bricks I've laid with my own bare hands, and can see through the crevices all that life has to offer, and it's oh so inviting but fear holds me back.  Am I truly afraid of happiness and happily ever afters?  Only time will tell, but for now I'll keep on trudging.