May 20, 2011

Lately the word on the street is "rapture" and the end of days as we know them.  The alpha and the omega.  No where have I read a specified date and/or time for that matter, when the world as we know it, will meet it's demise.  I was told today that "we will be our own demise" and that holds more truths than that of holy rollers.  I have faith in GOD, and I have faith in knowing that he is doing for me what I most certainly was not able nor willing to do for myself.  Guidance is what I lacked, unscripted guidance to be more specific and that is how I lived my life, unscripted and most of it still remains unwritten.  Perhaps I will tell that tale of a certain girl, whose life was interrupted by the hands of others', and herself.  Today, however; is not that day. I am embracing each day as it comes to me, I have no reason today not to.  My today's are nothing in comparison to my yesterdays.  I do not feel the necessity to live my days in fear of my tomorrows, what if tomorrow never comes?  I have today, and today is just enough for this girl.  I love unconditionally.  I love, imagine that of myself? I actually love.  A word seldom used in my vocabulary to express feeling towards another, and today I have the ability to use that word freely, and feel it's depth.  Euphoria is right in front of me, I've been witness to its' beauty, and tasted it's delectable nectar and it is bitter sweet.  An acquired taste perhaps for some, however; for me it's a fragrant, tantalizing, tranquil almost majestic flavor I have not known until now.  I taste it's  bounty almost daily now, and can not imagine a day without.