May 27, 2011

Seems to be rushing in from every direction, elation that is.  I have not yet experienced such wonder.  I see it, I can feel, even taste it at certain moments of the day.  Yet for some odd reason and yes I say 'odd', my fingers are unable to hold onto it.  It being sublime happiness.  I want it, I need it.  Perhaps all that I seek is in deed within reach and I need not look any further.  I've walked in and out of doors hundreds, perhaps thousands of times' and left empty handed.  This is not one of those times, I have in my hands, my whole life.  It's there, I take part daily, or do I?  Perhaps I am not living life but life itself is taking hold of me, grabbing me by the hand one at a time and leading me where I dared not go.  The roads ahead are unobstructed, I can assure you.  There are no bridges to cross, no burdens to bare today.  I stand outside of myself, looking in and realize that I am only a girl, sometimes uneasy and afraid, yet other times strong and confident.  It's a cycle, I will believe that just for today, by living each moment as they present themselves, I will overcome any and all that is placed before me.