October 24, 2012

Enough is enough!  I haven't a tear left to shed.  I feel them welling up inside, yet nothing flows from my eyes.  How can this be?  Do I not possess the ability to show emotion of this sort?  Have the ducts dried up?  Countless hours I have spent sobbing, and counting the tear drops as they stream down my cheeks, past my lips and into oblivion.  I have given each and everyone of them a name.  They have all served their purpose and now I am left with nothing.  An abyss of sorts, lonely and dark. I shiver from the dampness and the cold latches on.  My heart is pounding!  It's something far greater than anything I have ever experienced.  An alarming calmness has taken control and I am afraid.  Still my heart is beating faster, I can hear it.  Have I finally had enough of disappointment?  I know that I have not reached my plateau for I see nothing but obstacles in my way.  Perhaps it's the angle that is obscuring my vision, however; things haven't been more evident than they are right at this very moment in time.  Right here, Right now, I see you, I see me, I see things clearly; not for what I want them to be, for what they are.  All of this time that I have wasted...