April 7, 2017

So tired of fucking lies. You throw up on me and think I don't smell the bullshit that follows. So I am not anyone's ideal woman nor will I ever be and at this moment in time I don't give a flying fuck. I have catered to EVERYONE my entire adult life and it should be me who is being pampered however; I am judged, ridiculed, laughed at abandoned, neglected and still expected to fall on my knees and worship the ground you walk on. The only ground I will be walking is the one I am laid beneath. I cannot wait to die. A complete and honest rant of exactly  how I view myself. A nothing or "The Nothing" as in the movie. I can't seem to find any sort of middle ground anymore. I don't laugh or smile for that matter.