April 14, 2017

24 hours or so they say in a day, then why does it seem the days meld into one long ass day? I have enough on my plate just dealing with the few hours I am sane let alone the balance of the day. Who do I think I'm kidding anyway?! I am beyond repair at this point. I have all I can to bear even breathing. Somehow I manage and yet do I really, or is it I am simply moving in a direction that is completely foreign to me? I can're tolerate my life much longer. I thought I might be able to somehow swindled myself into believing I was worth someone's effort but apparently I was highly mistaken. Fuck this so-called life. It just isn't worth spending anymore of my energy.