June 24, 2013

Life... or should I say the 'circle of life'. How inconsistent everything surrounding us is. It's absolutely mind blowing, and not of the pleasurable nature. I have paid my debt to society ten fold and now am ready to embark on a new adventure. However; I am being held prisoner against my will. Summer is directly upon us and the urge, the need, the desire to get out and about is overwhelming. So much so that I am almost willing to go to ANY lengths in order to attain what it is I need in order to do just that...get out and about. I need to move forward from here and yet, yet, the chains that bind me grow shorter in length and I haven't the ability to break free from such bondage. I am embarrassed, to say the least, at this point in time. I am sick and tired of being dependent upon others' (for transportation purposes only), it's sickening and it angers me in the worst of ways. I am merely that pawn you often hear about, the one that is taken over by some unforeseen force. I haven't the strength left to pick myself up. I fear for my life, daily.