February 9, 2012

There are moments, seldom yet clear moments of clarity.  So crystal clear that I can almost reach towards the sky and take hold of.  What it is I am desperately trying to outstretch my arms towards, or hold in my hands is not quite clear, but there is something.  I see it.  I have touched it yet never held it close.  Why are so many things uncertain.  Why do I question everything that surrounds me?  Why? Why? Why?  I'm almost convinced that I hold the key to unlocking those answers, yet I somehow wonder....I wonder long and hard, perhaps too long and too hard.  I create images and circumstances in my own head, and GOD knows what happens when I release those thoughts...it's a whirlwind of chaos, and next thing ya know, all HELL is breaking loose and being set free.  I see it right in front of my very own eyes.  I can feel the pressure building, the doubts forming into these scenarios that I create, probably to pacify an angst that once was, and I just can't seem to let go of.  None of that matters, because the switch has been flipped to the on position and it's off to the races for my mind....This is going to be one hell of a fucking ride.