January 21, 2011

Today of all days....I presume would be the best day....to start anew.  I believe in taking leaps of faith, only when all faith has not been lost.  I strive to be a better person, in it's entirety, although others' sit in fear while I begin to spread my wings, knowing full well that their time with me has subsided.  I am growing as an individual, and am able to think clearly, more so daily, and I'm discovering that 'YES' there are genuine men and women out there, that do indeed want nothing more than friendship in exchange for the exact same.  Some are more inspiring than others' and I look to them for advice whether directly or indirectly.  I was most certainly "HAPPY" last night, unbelievably so that it was most terrifying, because I was not at all aware that I still possessed that emotion.  Nothing particular was said nor done, just a glance while speaking amongst other's was all I needed, reassurance of sorts perhaps, in knowing that YES it is possible to feel these feelings almost always.  I take a deep breathe in, hold it, then release, and I am right where I need to be for this moment, and the next and so on.