November 29, 2018

Trapped in my own mind watching the world go by wondering if I will ever get off this rollercoaster!? I wonder if there re words to describe exactly how it is that I feel? There has to be more to me than this. Stereotyped, ridiculed,  shut down, when will this madness end? Do I have the strength to close the doors to hell and lock my own demons away for good or am I doomed to relive every detail of every evil moment? Is this my punishment, do i deserve this? My answer is, "YES", I do believe I deserve to live in my own warped and delusional mind while others move on and up. Ughhh