November 29, 2018

Trapped in my own mind watching the world go by wondering if I will ever get off this rollercoaster!? I wonder if there re words to describe exactly how it is that I feel? There has to be more to me than this. Stereotyped, ridiculed,  shut down, when will this madness end? Do I have the strength to close the doors to hell and lock my own demons away for good or am I doomed to relive every detail of every evil moment? Is this my punishment, do i deserve this? My answer is, "YES", I do believe I deserve to live in my own warped and delusional mind while others move on and up. Ughhh

November 27, 2018

Anxiety, depression, PTSD, BIpolar disorder, BPD, etc. etc...what the fuck else can there possibly be? I am on the verge of an absolute collapse!