March 31, 2015

The emotions begin to bubble and then in an almost instant they are ALL boiling over and to clean up the mess afterwards is near impossible if not altogether.  In order to rectify any situation it seems I am the one who is constantly groveling for forgiveness whereas it shouldn't be me.  I have wasted my life searching for something that will never be.  An understanding of who I am, who I have become without ridicule.  I don't need YOUR directions because I am NOT YOU.  The threats no longer affect me, so lay them out for yourself.  I have grown more impatient than I care to acknowledge and the angst that has been created from all of these emotions has left me in pain. An agonizing deep rooted pain that has turned into utter and complete fury.  There is but one solution.