December 2, 2014

So I have decided to post here every day this month in hopes of relieving myself of some of this incredible angst that I am carrying with me. I have tried to reach out to some who have said that they would 'always' be there for me, little did I know that they meant only when it was/is convenient for them.  I am told I am needy and clingy by yet others'.  Here ye, here ye...I am no longer in need of you nor your sarcasms, your inability to communicate with me not at me, your ridicule, your lack of interest in what interests me.  So again, go to hell or where ever it is you descend to after you have ripped my emotions to shreds.  I realize you are that abyss that I lovingly am drawn to and by no means do I mean this to praise you.  You are toxic and I can not allow for myself to look in your direction hence I have covered the mirrors in my house and no longer glance at myself when walking by any window that may show some sort of distorted reflection.  I am my demise.