November 26, 2019

I wish I had the balls to end my own life. Rid everyone associated with me of my misery. I have no place to truly call home. Every day I live in fear and it's draining to say the least. Maybe a few pills, or a few too many drinks would do the trick. Who am I kidding. I feel guilty daily for having these thoughts and when I express myself to anyone they tell me I'm selfish.  How is it that I am selfish. I have given my all to everyone at any cost and have been beaten both emotionally and physically. Those scars don't fade with time. There is always something lurking around each and every corner to remind me I am worthless

November, 22, 2019

When you find yourself living someone else's life, assuming an identity that is not your own, neglecting yourself and forgetting who you once were, it's time!  Time for what? I haven't a clue. I can say with certainty however; it's time.