August 21, 2014

I've been coasting for some time now and I'm not sure how I've escaped tragedy. If the phrase, "God has something great in store for you", holds any truths, I pray it makes itself somehow visible NOW. I feel as though I was just hit by shrapnel and the pain is just too unbearable. I haven't a leg left to stand on and I'm disgusted with myself and my life; which I haven't made much of because I'm always fucking something up somehow. Have you ever felt like such a complete and utter failure no matter what others' might say? I wince when another tells me that I'm making progress, or how far I've come, stay positive and things will come full circle for you. FUCK! I just want to give up.