So begins yet another long month...I dread September...even more so the month of October...not for any other reason then this...On September 30, 1989, which by the way was a Sunday, I found myself working as I had always done, freshly graduated from high school, my whole life was in front of me or so I thought. My dreams were wild and very much alive then. The phone rings at work and it's for me, who the 'HELL' would be calling me at this ever so dreary job at this hour of the day? I answer the call, only to hear a cry (almost falling to my knees) I listened carefully to the words that were spoken to me..."Kelly, Gina was in an accident, you have to come to the hospital NOW!" With that being said I gathered my belongings and began a trip that was only 5 minutes but somehow seemed to drag on to the ends of the Earth, upon arrival I was greeted by a familiar face and told it doesn't look good. "FUCK ME" I thought, I trecked ever so gloomily to the floor I was directed to go to, and upon exiting the elevator my worst fears had become an ever so familiar horrifying dream that which plays upon me constantly. "We lost her!" What the fuck do you mean you lost her? How can you lose something so precious, a human life, a best-friend, where did she go? Why? I still to this very day recall my every step, every emotion, every breath, everything, it's as though it's happening again and again and again. I've tried with all of my might to 'let go and let God' yet it seems the harder I try to do such a thing I stumble and fall. I would have given my life for her, and I know that she is very well aware of that. I am more grateful today for my family (mom, Traci) for without the two of them I would surely be lost as well...The pain from that day never lets up, yet I strive with all of my might to move forward as slowly as I've been going for the past 20 something years, I am still moving forward. Thank you to those of you who have stood by me, and let me fall, and get up again time and time and time again. I love you all. This is for you...
When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we'll see
No I won't be afraid, no I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand, stand by me
And darlin', darlin', stand by me, oh now now stand by me
Stand by me, stand by me
If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
And the mountains should crumble to the sea
I won't cry, I won't cry, no I won't shed a tear
Just as long as you stand, stand by me
And darlin', darlin', stand by me, oh stand by me
Stand by me, stand by me, stand by me-e, yeah
Whenever you're in trouble won't you stand by me, oh now now stand by me
Oh stand by me, stand by me, stand by me
Darlin', darlin', stand by me-e, stand by me
Oh stand by me, stand by me, stand by me
When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we'll see
No I won't be afraid, no I won't be afraid
Just as long as you stand, stand by me
And darlin', darlin', stand by me, oh now now stand by me
Stand by me, stand by me
If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
And the mountains should crumble to the sea
I won't cry, I won't cry, no I won't shed a tear
Just as long as you stand, stand by me
And darlin', darlin', stand by me, oh stand by me
Stand by me, stand by me, stand by me-e, yeah
Whenever you're in trouble won't you stand by me, oh now now stand by me
Oh stand by me, stand by me, stand by me
Darlin', darlin', stand by me-e, stand by me
Oh stand by me, stand by me, stand by me
